My mind is filled with post its

I cannot believe I almost forgot my blogger password! It's been that long since I've visited this page. Unintentionally. Really.

So, at the moment, my mind is filled with post it reminders and notes and lots of other important things, and not important ones too. Blogging for a while was just at the bottom of that long long list. But I've missed jotting my thoughts down. Really.

I don't even know where to begin now. I'm a clutterbug with random thoughts going on in my head. Now.

Where do I begin?

I suppose I wanted to make an entry entitled things I learned during my first year as a mum, but I doubt I can make an entry with a logical and chronological wave of thought.... So, I should probably just blurt my thoughts out in one go.

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Little B turned ONE a day before we headed off to Manila for a two week (turned three and a half weeks) holiday..... I am now a mum to a toddler! No longer a novice at this motherhood phase of my life .. but definitely not yet an expert...

... There is never enough time in a day to do all the things I have to do, things I want to do, and things I am supposed to do .... Well, there is not even enough days in the week to accomplish it all!

... I now know what people mean when they say that a child grows up too quick, and time flies. It really does. Amazing.

... A child will always take up most of your time, whether they are newborn, 6 months, 13 months, etc. They will always demand your time. No matter what time of the day.

... At 13 months after the birth of our child, our house is still a mess. Not because we don't have the time to clean it. We don't have the energy to.

... Breastfeeding is most difficult during the first month. At 13 months on, I can do this in my sleep. Effortless.

... It is essential, important, necessary to nurture the relationship with my husband! It takes a big effort to, on both our side, but that is part of the whole dynamics with a baby.

... Taking a night flight with a toddler is as difficult as doing a day flight. It's just a matter of getting comfy on the plane with the sleepy baby on your lap, or an active baby trying to run around the aircraft. Either way, it's a challenge.

... Grandparents will always spoil grandkids. That's their role.

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In about six hours I will have to get up, so I have to get some zzzs. As much as I would love to babble on. I can't. Physically am drained.

Work has been taking up a lot of my time. Working from home is even more difficult than working from outside the home. I am looking at putting B into occasional child care. At least 2 hours a week. I guess it would be good for her to be mingling with other people. As much as it would be good for me to learn to let go. Slowly. It would be good. Both ways.